Hey y'all! I started making little videos in November as a mental health, hobby thing (thanks to a JustAbout rewards, no less! but I've been wanting to do it forever).
I'm not looking into monetizing them or anything, as I don't have the budget to acquire the right hardware or the time to learn video editing and make them "good".
I also kinda like that they're a bit crunchy, a bit DIY, a bit bad. That way, they're more "me".
And I really love making them!! I find that process super energizing. I usually make them in the evening, and then go to bed super happy.
But... usually, the next day... when I wake up... there are a few views on YouTube (like, 20 on average), which is great, but there aren't a lot of likes (I even got one dislike today! what am I supposed to do with that?) and on BlueSky there was just. nothing at all this morning. I personally sent the video to a friend, too, and she says she loved it etc, but apparently not enough to "like" it.
It feels like I poured my heart and soul and did the brave thing of "being visible" and people just shrugged and moved on. It hurts a lot.
And so I end up feelin depressed, so I start thinking about the next video, and I have lots of fun thinking about it and preparing it, and then... the cycle goes on.
Does anyone else, when they were starting out like me, had this "morning after" feeling of "oh, actually, nobody cared"? How did it go away, what did you need in order to feel OK with nobody caring?
I don't think I can make or want to make even the sort of really popular video that gets lots of likes and views. So my only option is to change how I feel about screaming in the void.
Do you have any tips or encouragement? This is the most positive community I know, so I'm trusting you with this vulnerable part of me! Please be kind!
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